Update!!!

finally!!!Update!!!haha....but actually who cares about my blog post...I do..at least...^^

ok!!finish with those crap.....
1st thing I wanna talk about is the latest blog post,definitely not this, it was a sharing of article (poem) from an e-mail i reaceive. Why would i shared an email where i usually dont do? the reason is clear enough. i got touched...or i should say inspired. and the most inportant fact is it make me feel like i m a bad lover.

am i?
i wouldn't know. and the answer would just leave it to the special one...

okay, 2nd thing is about my life. my university life.
actually i like the way i live now. at least not many doubt, trouble or problem for me. i believe i am independent enough to live alone. But sometimes, things just don't turn out like they should be. this made me hate this place as never before.
why? the stress, the people, the hotness.

the feeling get stronger when i last went back to my hometown~KL
it was the night trip, i look out to the city that i can't see in this village place and the feeling of crying and touch had reach to the peak point of the day. I had this feeling when i 1st came bak to KL, never after that, until that particular rainy night.
i had the feeling to not leaving a city life. i feel like it was the night life i want and not the night i spend in the mamak stall with my beloved friend.
it was a strong feeling that i should not choose to do further study in the 1st place. so i have the enough evidence  to not stay in this place anymore.but now i can't, i just can't. the reason for me to stay is more htan the reason for me to leave.

i think about this before.
i m a girl that is very happy. it should be happy.
i have a guy that love me very much, so do I to him.
i have a bunch of friends that talk craps and joke with me, share with me, play with me, work with me.
i have a uncomplete or excessive but happy family.
i have chance to eat, sleep, play, study and blogging.

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so what do i want?
i really do not know. the stress i had after i came here had drive me crazy.
it was hard to notice from the outside as i m good in pretending or acting.

hrm.... spread it out mayb a good choice... at least i have a platform to tell
SEE!!! i got everything i want...i should be a girl that is full of happiness.
GOSH!!!!
cant beleive i m telling crap again.